bad picture of my christmas tree and our presents.
yay
22.12.07
19.12.07
last year, one day ago
last year, one day ago Greg and I decided to start dating.
As almost everyone knows- I met Greg at Starbucks. We had started talking and formed a great friendship. And our friendship turned into something more but I was unsure of what to do about it. I really liked Greg but this was my first time in years to be single and I was enjoying it. I didn't know if I wanted to start something serious and I knew that if I committed myself to Greg, it would be serious. The more I thought about it the more I realized that everyone else I was seeing didn't compare to Greg in the slightest. I remember getting sick a couple of days before a year ago, yesterday and Greg met me at the doctors and waited with me there. I remember thinking "if I let this one go I will forever regret." So as soon as I decided to commit to Greg I just had one obstacle to overcome- our ages. If you don't know Greg and I are nine years apart. I had no idea how my parents would react to us dating but that was just something we would have to worry about when we got to that point.
So one year ago, one day ago Greg and I decided to have our Christmas- I was going back home the next day. I bought him the lamest gift ever and I only say that b/c I don't think he liked it. :)
I bought him "Nine Stories" by JD Salinger. I wasn't really too sure what to get him so a nice, old book seemed like the perfect gift. We went to his friend, Brad's house. Brad has a shed outside of his house where Greg was staying (I still shudder at this) and we sat on the mattress and exchanged our gifts. He gave me the best present I received that year. Maxwell. Our plant. I know I sound ridiculous by naming a plant: Maxwell. But I wanted something living and Greg gave me a really beautiful houseplant. I still have the christmas card he gave me- nuns playing basketball on the covers.
After our present exchange we went to our friend Justin's house. Justin was throwing a "martini party." If you can't guess the guest star of the party it's the martini- a nastily strong drink. (I'm not much of a fan of alcohol). I remember really good cheese at this party. One of my favourite pictures of Greg came from this party.
So after the party, Greg drove me to my aunt's house, where I was staying that whole year. We were in his Jeep. I don't really remember if we talked about anything before I said something along the lines of "let's be serious, let's do this, i want us to only see each other...and we'll figure the rest out later." i wish i remember my exact lines but I don't.
But that was how we officially began this journey, this relationship, this life. Never have I felt more content with a decision. I have never even though about a way out or what it would be like to not be with Greg...well I have but when I do think about it it's like this un-imaginable void.
Blessed are we in love.
As almost everyone knows- I met Greg at Starbucks. We had started talking and formed a great friendship. And our friendship turned into something more but I was unsure of what to do about it. I really liked Greg but this was my first time in years to be single and I was enjoying it. I didn't know if I wanted to start something serious and I knew that if I committed myself to Greg, it would be serious. The more I thought about it the more I realized that everyone else I was seeing didn't compare to Greg in the slightest. I remember getting sick a couple of days before a year ago, yesterday and Greg met me at the doctors and waited with me there. I remember thinking "if I let this one go I will forever regret." So as soon as I decided to commit to Greg I just had one obstacle to overcome- our ages. If you don't know Greg and I are nine years apart. I had no idea how my parents would react to us dating but that was just something we would have to worry about when we got to that point.
So one year ago, one day ago Greg and I decided to have our Christmas- I was going back home the next day. I bought him the lamest gift ever and I only say that b/c I don't think he liked it. :)
I bought him "Nine Stories" by JD Salinger. I wasn't really too sure what to get him so a nice, old book seemed like the perfect gift. We went to his friend, Brad's house. Brad has a shed outside of his house where Greg was staying (I still shudder at this) and we sat on the mattress and exchanged our gifts. He gave me the best present I received that year. Maxwell. Our plant. I know I sound ridiculous by naming a plant: Maxwell. But I wanted something living and Greg gave me a really beautiful houseplant. I still have the christmas card he gave me- nuns playing basketball on the covers.
After our present exchange we went to our friend Justin's house. Justin was throwing a "martini party." If you can't guess the guest star of the party it's the martini- a nastily strong drink. (I'm not much of a fan of alcohol). I remember really good cheese at this party. One of my favourite pictures of Greg came from this party.
So after the party, Greg drove me to my aunt's house, where I was staying that whole year. We were in his Jeep. I don't really remember if we talked about anything before I said something along the lines of "let's be serious, let's do this, i want us to only see each other...and we'll figure the rest out later." i wish i remember my exact lines but I don't.
But that was how we officially began this journey, this relationship, this life. Never have I felt more content with a decision. I have never even though about a way out or what it would be like to not be with Greg...well I have but when I do think about it it's like this un-imaginable void.
Blessed are we in love.
18.12.07
one year
happy one year to us.
it's gone by really fast. but not fast enough. never fast enough. and in one year and two days we'll be married. see- not fast enough.
pictures of the day will come soon!!!!!!
it's gone by really fast. but not fast enough. never fast enough. and in one year and two days we'll be married. see- not fast enough.
pictures of the day will come soon!!!!!!
17.12.07
the first week of winter break, 2007
today marks the first week of winter break. i am happy that i don't have anything to really worry about other than cleaning my apt and wrapping my christmas gift- because yes, i finished all of my christmas shopping today. i might go out and get a few more items but for the most part...everything is done! i could no feel more relaxed about this christmas than i do today. i think this is the first time in ages that i got everything all done a week prior to christmas. usually it's a few days beforehand. we'll see how long it takes me to wrap everything.
i had my endoscopy this past friday. the only thing they found was redness in my stomach. hmmm. they took a biopsy so we'll see what that says in a couple of days. on that note- i've felt super weird all day. but i think a good dinner should correct that. a good dinner and finishing up the season of LOST. we have about 4 episodes left. woah.
greg and robert threw a part on saturday. it was okkkkk. it was cold and muddy and i had no desire to go outside with all of the people who wanted to smoke or talk or drink. so i sat on the couch and kept falling asleep. i'm so bad at partying.
what else? greg and i went to church this sunday. the pastor said something really great, i'll be paraphrasing but it was something like, "your desires intersect perflect with God's purpose." and i started thinking about that and i wasn't really sure what he meant b/c I desire a lot of things that probably aren't Godly and have nothing to do with my purpose. but the more i thought about the more i realized that some of the things I desire, the things that feel extremely right- those are probably part of God's purpose? What are those things? Well I haven't recieved any divine calling or vocation annoucements from God but I know that I'm supposed to be a wife and a mother. I know I'm supposed to learn more about God and loving Him. I suppose those things are part of God's purpose for me and maybe prupose isn't always: job. I think a lot of the times ppl think that their purpose is what they do to make money. But maybe your purpose is what you do to serve God. I don't know really. I'd like to know what I'm going to do to make money considering in one year and three days I will be married. But I guess that's where trusting in God comes in...and sometimes that is just HARD.
Also, we drove to Dallas last night and saw Juno. Awesome, awesome, awesome movie. I'm not going to go into the plot summary or anything- that's what imbd or something like that is for (yahoo movies?). But I suggest everyone sees this movie. It's probably one of my favourites and I definately want to rent it- maybe own- because I missed a lot of the lines due to laughter. Not that it was a total laughing movie, there was alot of heartfelt realities. I guess that's what made the movie so great, it was real.
Go see it.
i had my endoscopy this past friday. the only thing they found was redness in my stomach. hmmm. they took a biopsy so we'll see what that says in a couple of days. on that note- i've felt super weird all day. but i think a good dinner should correct that. a good dinner and finishing up the season of LOST. we have about 4 episodes left. woah.
greg and robert threw a part on saturday. it was okkkkk. it was cold and muddy and i had no desire to go outside with all of the people who wanted to smoke or talk or drink. so i sat on the couch and kept falling asleep. i'm so bad at partying.
what else? greg and i went to church this sunday. the pastor said something really great, i'll be paraphrasing but it was something like, "your desires intersect perflect with God's purpose." and i started thinking about that and i wasn't really sure what he meant b/c I desire a lot of things that probably aren't Godly and have nothing to do with my purpose. but the more i thought about the more i realized that some of the things I desire, the things that feel extremely right- those are probably part of God's purpose? What are those things? Well I haven't recieved any divine calling or vocation annoucements from God but I know that I'm supposed to be a wife and a mother. I know I'm supposed to learn more about God and loving Him. I suppose those things are part of God's purpose for me and maybe prupose isn't always: job. I think a lot of the times ppl think that their purpose is what they do to make money. But maybe your purpose is what you do to serve God. I don't know really. I'd like to know what I'm going to do to make money considering in one year and three days I will be married. But I guess that's where trusting in God comes in...and sometimes that is just HARD.
Also, we drove to Dallas last night and saw Juno. Awesome, awesome, awesome movie. I'm not going to go into the plot summary or anything- that's what imbd or something like that is for (yahoo movies?). But I suggest everyone sees this movie. It's probably one of my favourites and I definately want to rent it- maybe own- because I missed a lot of the lines due to laughter. Not that it was a total laughing movie, there was alot of heartfelt realities. I guess that's what made the movie so great, it was real.
Go see it.
10.12.07
toms
today i bought a pair of Toms. great shoes. they looked all weird off my feet but once you put them on they are great.
go read about them:
TOMS
the neat thing is when you buy a pair they donate a pair to a child who needs shoes. i really like that. there are about three more pairs i want. i wasn't going to get any shoes today when we went to Shoe Gypsy but I needed shoes to keep my feet warm and my flats weren't covering it, i didn't want to always wear boots, and/or tennis shoes. so the Toms caught my eyes.
today i've done a whole lot of nothing. i'm getting ready to study for my one exam tomorrow...night. i talked to one of my professors and i'm going to recieve and incomplete in his class and retake all of the tests in january. that's the best news ever.
so i need to find a new drink from starbucks. i've been drinking hot chocolate but i'm getting kinda sick of it. i haven't had coffee in over a month. and i don't really like tea right now, or at least i don't like their decaffeinated teas.
it's cold outside and my heater goes off every 30 minutes so my only source of warmth is my electric blanket. i can't wait to have central heat and air....and proper insulation. i feel like those are really grown up things to want in a house.
ok. now it is time to study. i need to do something productive.
go read about them:
TOMS
the neat thing is when you buy a pair they donate a pair to a child who needs shoes. i really like that. there are about three more pairs i want. i wasn't going to get any shoes today when we went to Shoe Gypsy but I needed shoes to keep my feet warm and my flats weren't covering it, i didn't want to always wear boots, and/or tennis shoes. so the Toms caught my eyes.
today i've done a whole lot of nothing. i'm getting ready to study for my one exam tomorrow...night. i talked to one of my professors and i'm going to recieve and incomplete in his class and retake all of the tests in january. that's the best news ever.
so i need to find a new drink from starbucks. i've been drinking hot chocolate but i'm getting kinda sick of it. i haven't had coffee in over a month. and i don't really like tea right now, or at least i don't like their decaffeinated teas.
it's cold outside and my heater goes off every 30 minutes so my only source of warmth is my electric blanket. i can't wait to have central heat and air....and proper insulation. i feel like those are really grown up things to want in a house.
ok. now it is time to study. i need to do something productive.
9.12.07
Movie Movie Movie
i want to move. move from my little apt. into a bigger house with a fireplace and central heat and air. i want greg to move from his house into the house with me. we have a year or so. and then bliss.
we saw "The Golden Compass" this friday. don't hate. we both heard all of the rumours (or truths) about pullman's atheistic ideas and killing god, etc etc etc etc. but personally, i don't believe it. i'm sure he's an athiest but i think he just wrote some books and then some people found out he's not christian and now they want to go out and create a hulabaloo. now when watching the movie i was looking for the undertones of "killing god" but i more saw the goal to be to overthrow the government- or something like that. and the government was based on some religion or had religious undertones or a base, it reminded me alot of catholicism (the dress, mainly). so really , go see it and decide for yourself before you make some rash decision when you probably haven't even read the books.
we also saw "Waitress" last night. that's the Keri Russell movie that came out this past summer. it was good. very realistic, funny, sad- i cried a bit. it left greg craving pie (which he is getting right now, as i type). I think this movie is definately one of my favourites. we're also watching "School of Rock" tonight. I've heard good things.
we bought a Blockbuster rewards card too- so now we get something from all of the movies we're renting...which is good b/c Lost Season 3 comes out soon and I'm pretty sure we're going to spend a fortune renting it.
Movies I want to see: Juno (!!!!) and Sweeny Todd.
Currently it is about 35 degrees outside and I'm kinda working on a paper. A paper that is due tomorrow. But I have a page written and I love writing for this class so I don't really mind.
We went back to TCBC (church) this morning. I really do like it there. The sermon was extremely relevant to our lives and some of our struggles. In case you're wondering what it was about it was basically about tithing and how sometimes we are robbing God. The interesting thing was that the sermon did not just hit on the money factor of tithing but it also discussed other ways we could be robbing God. I thought that was great (not robbing God, but the insight).
We then spent an hour grocery shopping at Target and now we are stationed here at Borders.
This has probably been one of the best weekends we've had mainly because Greg and I have had a lot of fun not really from the activities we've done but from just being together.
Next weekend: Christmas party!
we saw "The Golden Compass" this friday. don't hate. we both heard all of the rumours (or truths) about pullman's atheistic ideas and killing god, etc etc etc etc. but personally, i don't believe it. i'm sure he's an athiest but i think he just wrote some books and then some people found out he's not christian and now they want to go out and create a hulabaloo. now when watching the movie i was looking for the undertones of "killing god" but i more saw the goal to be to overthrow the government- or something like that. and the government was based on some religion or had religious undertones or a base, it reminded me alot of catholicism (the dress, mainly). so really , go see it and decide for yourself before you make some rash decision when you probably haven't even read the books.
we also saw "Waitress" last night. that's the Keri Russell movie that came out this past summer. it was good. very realistic, funny, sad- i cried a bit. it left greg craving pie (which he is getting right now, as i type). I think this movie is definately one of my favourites. we're also watching "School of Rock" tonight. I've heard good things.
we bought a Blockbuster rewards card too- so now we get something from all of the movies we're renting...which is good b/c Lost Season 3 comes out soon and I'm pretty sure we're going to spend a fortune renting it.
Movies I want to see: Juno (!!!!) and Sweeny Todd.
Currently it is about 35 degrees outside and I'm kinda working on a paper. A paper that is due tomorrow. But I have a page written and I love writing for this class so I don't really mind.
We went back to TCBC (church) this morning. I really do like it there. The sermon was extremely relevant to our lives and some of our struggles. In case you're wondering what it was about it was basically about tithing and how sometimes we are robbing God. The interesting thing was that the sermon did not just hit on the money factor of tithing but it also discussed other ways we could be robbing God. I thought that was great (not robbing God, but the insight).
We then spent an hour grocery shopping at Target and now we are stationed here at Borders.
This has probably been one of the best weekends we've had mainly because Greg and I have had a lot of fun not really from the activities we've done but from just being together.
Next weekend: Christmas party!
6.12.07
TWELVE random THOUGHTS
1. I went to the GI doctor this morning. She was much better doctor than the other one I saw. I have an endoscope scheduled in the next two weeks- that is where they will look down my esphagous and say "ohhhh so that is what's wrong." and then they will give me medicines and I will feel ok swallowing again and then I can eat a huge chiptole burrito.
2. I get my hair cut tomorrow. just a trim really. i always like getting my hair cut, it's relaxing and nice pampering-activity.
3. Olive needs a bath- but she always needs a bath.
4. Right now I am procrastinating finishing my paper for Religion, Art, and Visual Culture or as I like to call it The Class that Never Really Connected with it's Description. But I guess the prof can get away with that when it's his class.
5. I finally got one of these snuggly, warm fleeces from work. I've been wearing so weirdy cast off fleece that made me look like a valet. The new one is grey and thankfully not red like old one.
6. I finished off about 1/2 of the Brownie Batter ice cream we bought last night.
7. I went into Central Market today to buy our friend/room mate Robert a present and ended up buying way to much stuff. This usually happens when I go there. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT!
8. I have new lenses for my glasses ordered. They should be here SOON.
9. I bought my first Christmas decoration on Tuesday. It's a rosemary bush shaped like a Christmas tree. Today I planned him (yes, the rosemary bush is a guy). I hope he lives. I always have such good intentions for my plants and somehow they end up dying but really I think it's from the changing seasons and all of the freakish rain we had this summer.
10. We're having a Starbucks employee/date Christmas party next Saturday. It should be a blast.
11. Tomorrow I get to sleep in- no doctors, no work, no school. I think we're making eggs but I really want what Elia made on Top Chef, Season 2, Episode 7- minus the ham!
YUM
But it's probably the ham that makes the dish.
12. Also, thank you to my co-worker Sheavon (who doesn't read this) for introducing me to Astrud Gilberto
LISTEN
2. I get my hair cut tomorrow. just a trim really. i always like getting my hair cut, it's relaxing and nice pampering-activity.
3. Olive needs a bath- but she always needs a bath.
4. Right now I am procrastinating finishing my paper for Religion, Art, and Visual Culture or as I like to call it The Class that Never Really Connected with it's Description. But I guess the prof can get away with that when it's his class.
5. I finally got one of these snuggly, warm fleeces from work. I've been wearing so weirdy cast off fleece that made me look like a valet. The new one is grey and thankfully not red like old one.
6. I finished off about 1/2 of the Brownie Batter ice cream we bought last night.
7. I went into Central Market today to buy our friend/room mate Robert a present and ended up buying way to much stuff. This usually happens when I go there. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERT!
8. I have new lenses for my glasses ordered. They should be here SOON.
9. I bought my first Christmas decoration on Tuesday. It's a rosemary bush shaped like a Christmas tree. Today I planned him (yes, the rosemary bush is a guy). I hope he lives. I always have such good intentions for my plants and somehow they end up dying but really I think it's from the changing seasons and all of the freakish rain we had this summer.
10. We're having a Starbucks employee/date Christmas party next Saturday. It should be a blast.
11. Tomorrow I get to sleep in- no doctors, no work, no school. I think we're making eggs but I really want what Elia made on Top Chef, Season 2, Episode 7- minus the ham!
YUM
But it's probably the ham that makes the dish.
12. Also, thank you to my co-worker Sheavon (who doesn't read this) for introducing me to Astrud Gilberto
LISTEN
3.12.07
Time.......
how do you take time for yourself?
apparently I'm not good at this- yet I do no volunteering and when I do have free time (which is fairly often) I spend it in my bed and watching America's Next Top Model marathons. So is that REALLY taking time for myself? I don't know what else I would do with my spare time besides read or watch tv or do a crossword puzzle. According to my mom taking time for myself is taking a nap or just not thinking (which is easier said than done). I think if I were to spend time by myself, at least right now, I would become even more stressed than I probably already am.
By the way, I'm really stressed right now. But I didn't know it. Until about last week when I didn't know what was wrong with me. So I'm supposed to be stressed out and I'm not even sure if I am. Maybe I am because I have list of about ten things that need to be done- ten things that needed to be done last week.
maybe I will start yoga? That's supposed to be relaxing or something. I think I would think too much about everthing but the actual relaxtion part of yoga.
i should clean my house. and finish my french homework. and do some christmas shopping.
but tonight- i think i'll just watch heroes with greg and think about nothing.
that's good enough for taking time for myself- isn't it?
apparently I'm not good at this- yet I do no volunteering and when I do have free time (which is fairly often) I spend it in my bed and watching America's Next Top Model marathons. So is that REALLY taking time for myself? I don't know what else I would do with my spare time besides read or watch tv or do a crossword puzzle. According to my mom taking time for myself is taking a nap or just not thinking (which is easier said than done). I think if I were to spend time by myself, at least right now, I would become even more stressed than I probably already am.
By the way, I'm really stressed right now. But I didn't know it. Until about last week when I didn't know what was wrong with me. So I'm supposed to be stressed out and I'm not even sure if I am. Maybe I am because I have list of about ten things that need to be done- ten things that needed to be done last week.
maybe I will start yoga? That's supposed to be relaxing or something. I think I would think too much about everthing but the actual relaxtion part of yoga.
i should clean my house. and finish my french homework. and do some christmas shopping.
but tonight- i think i'll just watch heroes with greg and think about nothing.
that's good enough for taking time for myself- isn't it?
2.12.07
UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE
i have mild or seasonal asthama? yeah. that could explain some of what i'm feeling. still doesn't explain my appetite or the thing in my thoart. but at least i have figured out something! thanks to family friend and fantastic allergist, mike!
last night greg and i saw "mr. magorium's wonder emporium." it was visually stunning but it wasn't the best plot, etc. i guess it was a little scattered? but i liked going to go see a movie and just having fun. this week has been way too stressful.
slowly my appetite is coming back, which is good. i won't disclose how much weight i've lost this week but it's a whole lot more than i would ever want for myself in one week. and today i had 3 square meals plus some. which is great. i love eating. i can't wait to eat a chiptole burrito.
today we went to church. i really do like going to church, especially when it's a church i feel strongly about. which is how i feel about the church we went to today. we've been visiting another church but i don't think we really connected with it. the pastor's sermons NEVER made sense... bah. but we really like this church. and i think we want to keep going.
i'm so excited that this is my last week of classes. infact wednesday is my last day of classes. and i get to sleep in this friday! i can't wait until winter break.
that's all.
last night greg and i saw "mr. magorium's wonder emporium." it was visually stunning but it wasn't the best plot, etc. i guess it was a little scattered? but i liked going to go see a movie and just having fun. this week has been way too stressful.
slowly my appetite is coming back, which is good. i won't disclose how much weight i've lost this week but it's a whole lot more than i would ever want for myself in one week. and today i had 3 square meals plus some. which is great. i love eating. i can't wait to eat a chiptole burrito.
today we went to church. i really do like going to church, especially when it's a church i feel strongly about. which is how i feel about the church we went to today. we've been visiting another church but i don't think we really connected with it. the pastor's sermons NEVER made sense... bah. but we really like this church. and i think we want to keep going.
i'm so excited that this is my last week of classes. infact wednesday is my last day of classes. and i get to sleep in this friday! i can't wait until winter break.
that's all.
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