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30.10.07

the ups and downs in grades

1. my glasses never feel clean enough.
yuck.

so i have been constantly struggling with my world geography class this year. at a freshman level this class should've been an easy A. but unfortunatley it's not. even the guy who gets As on all of his tests turned to me today and said "these tests are hard." yes, yes they are. over 20 pages of notes, 75 vocabulary words, map identifications of states, countries, rivers, lakes, capitals, geographical zones, and random cities. that is what each test is.
and today is the first time i made a B on one of those tests.
i am very proud. and i worked very hard (very hard). but it just seems unfair that ever two weeks i will have to repeat myself and work very hard. it is not my only class. if it was my only class i would do fine. i wouldn't mind the work load. but i have 4 other classes that should be a lot harder, 3 of them pertain to my major. yet i am wasting all of my time learning about Peru and Colombia and the Leeward Islands, etc etc.
i am fed up with this class but there is nothing i can do about it because i don't have room in my schedule to retake it.

I have had my Degree Progress Report up on my moniter for 3 days now. Everyday I look at it an scribble notes of what I am missing and what I need to take.
I have run into one problem.
I need 124 hours to graduate.
Yet if I take 15 hours next spring, 15 hours in the summer, 15 hours in the fall I will somehow be 4 hours short. Which is dumb because you can't divide 124 by 3 so you have take TWO extra class than necessary to gradute.
WTF- I know.

So somehow I have to squeeze in two classes. I'm thinking a Maymester and 17 hours in the fall.
Sometimes I hate school, really. But I do like to learn. Just not when my life is judged on my As, Bs, and Cs. And depending on my grades is how my social life is judged. I don't even go out as much as the regular college student. I don't spend my whole studying either. But it's balanced.
(Instead of going to a party last Saturday, Greg and I read at Borders until 10 and then I went to bed at like 10:30. What 20 yr old does that?) I'm not complaining. I'm just saying that I work hard so it's a shame that sometimes my hard work isn't visible because I don't mesh well with a class. Or that despite the fact that I am driven enough to take a full semester of classes during summer I am still 4 hours short.

It's just frustrating. And overwhelming.

29.10.07

This Week, Next Year

this week as follows

monday:
doctor
hereos
studying

tuesday:
test
job interview

wednesday:
french test
halloweeen
red, orange, and black dinner and scary movies!

thursday:
olive's surgery
grey's anatomy

friday:
doctor
parents in plano


i think it will be a good week (minus the two tests).

this past weekend was exactly what i needed/wanted. greg and i basically just vegged out the whole weekend. and i'm not exaggerating in the slightest. we watched hours of tv and spent even more hours reading. it was perfect. and lazy. i started and finished a book called 'the overachievers: the secret lives of driven kids." it was incredibly good and eye opening. and a true story. i suggest everyone read it.
the strange thing about this book was the author was following around a group of kids (all overachievers) who are in my graduating clas: 2005. and it made me think about me during my senior year of high school and while I was driven and ambitious I was definately not like these kids.
I stuck to one activity (theatre), kept my grades up, and spent the remaining time in church.
these kids did two sports, tons of community service, were in all AP classes- straight A students, etc etc etc.
But I never had a desire to go to an Ivy League school (which most of these kids did).
The author also wrote a book about sororities and I plan to read that next.

Speaking of school I've been planning my class schedule for next semester. And it's been a little stressful.
I am graduating early and I need the hours to do so. I need religion classes and English classes and a science class (one more) and a sophomore English class. All by next Fall 08. It's doable I think. But I also want to work next semester and I need a schedule that has a couple hours open each week. SO after about 2 hours of going over my schedule I think I have one planned to the T.
There is one class I might have trouble getting into b/c I'm missing one of the prerequistes for it.
And there is another I don't REALLY need but I REALLY want to take (I need the upper level hours for it but not the section that it is in, if that makes sense).

I need to meet with an advisor.

25.10.07

ugghghghg

this year me and food have not mixed well.
but this is probably the year that i have eaten the best.
i hope ALL of my symptoms are related and treatable so this can be done with.

i have a job interview tuesday.
wish me luck.

olive might have surgery soon.
boo.
she has some growth on her mouth. and
it keeps on growing.

the end.
for now.

22.10.07

open doors, ajar doors

i haven't made coffee at home in forever. every morning greg and i go to starbucks.
that sounds a bit spoiled huh?

ok since it's cold outside i feel nostalgic. it means that i will think about greg a lot. and my family. and everything in the past.
and i won't really think about it but i will feel it- all the holiday memories.

and i know this is something that is so overdone. but i really want these:


they look really warm. i have no warm shoes. i have nice rain boots. nice converse shoes. and some very lovely flats. some great heels. but no warm shoes. maybe for christmas? but maybe not. i'm not really into the the whole "ugg boot" craze. but they do look warm.

both greg and i are looking for jobs.
yes, i'm employed at the GAP. and it's nice. i'm getting used to it. but i'm still looking for a different place to work.
so is greg. since FamilyNet is going under really soon.
i guess it would be more scary for us if I didn't have another year of school left. But thankfully I do. Which means I still have year to nestle (gratefully) under my parent's wings.

i'm thinking of wedding colours right now. i know we aren't having a big big big blowout but it still needs a theme to tie it all in.
i'm thinking jewel tone green, gold, and cream.
i want it to be holiday-ish. but i don't like silver. i don't really like reds too much (at least not for my wedding) and green was a colour we thought of using for the other wedding plans.

speaking of colour tonight greg and i had an orange dinner. a scrumptious orange dinner thanks to Central Market.
mac n cheese
apricot glazed carrots
pumpkin chiffon pie

i feel like i've written a lot but that i have a lot more to say.
how about...i don't know what i want to do with myself when i graduate?
but that i'm praying God will open some door for me. But right now there are a million doors- all ajar.

monday of monday

i just painted my nails. something i haven't done in a couple of months and it looks weird. but i'll get used to it soon.
navy blue is supposed to be THE colour of the season. mine are black right now. but i'll probably buy navy blue to be in style.
i'm eating fatty foods tonight because tomorrow i can have no fats so on wednesday my gall bladder will nicely on a sonogram- or that's what i assume is the reason i'm restricted to fruit and broth tomorrow.
central market here i come.


greg starts work again tonight. well starbucks work. he's been back at FamilyNet now. but he hasn't gone back to starbucks since the surgery. so it'll be weird. a lot like last year maybe? this is around the time when we started falling in love. it's the weather of when we started falling in love.

it is 51 today. i love it.

we took olive to a new vet today because she has a little growth on her mouth. supposedly it's a benign pollop (sp?) but i'm worried because it keeps on growing. we're supposed to moniter it and then she'll probably have a little surgery.

well. time to go feed olive.
then grocery shopping.
then GREGORY.
and studying-kinda.
and who knows!

1129

we officially have one year, one month, and twenty nine days until our wedding.
time is slowly flying. (that right there contradicts itself but makes somewhat sense)

19.10.07

i love the fall

i don't listen to music anymore.
i just realized that. or i have been realizing it but not wanting to say it because music is one of those "central" things in life.
to fill the lack of noise i usually turn on the t.v.
and i'm always in the car with greg. and we talk. or not talk.
but rarely music. i know he listens to it in the car. he's in the car more alone than i am.
i don't like ipods really- the earbuds hurt my ears- and i sold my this summer for the macbook.

i like fall a lot right now. i love not worrying about sweating.
i love that i can leave my AC off now.
i love that i can burn my pumpkin candle and not be wishful for fall but glad that it is here.
hot drinks seem more apporiate.
and i can wear layers and layers and layers.
the only downer is wearing socks. it takes me awhile to get used to socks after not wearing them for so long.
(and equally long to not wear them in the summer after wearing for them so long)

i love that now that it is fall my white sheets look like a warmer white whereas in the summer they looked cool and light.
now that look like snow. and marshmellows. and sugar. and steam.

10 months and one day

so yesterday greg and i marked 10 months off our calendar.
it's not a long time. and i want it to feel that way. because 10 months is nothing compared to the years and years we get to be together.
but 10 months is significant in that it is 10 months that we have spent together. 9 of which we have not been a day apart.
10 months that we have spent almost every day blissfully happy, supoorting each other, learning about each other, loving each other. and we get 10 more plus 10 more plus 10 more plus forever.
i couldn't be happier.

i usually don't notice when we've hit a "month anniversary" because the real dates that i'm counting down on are the ones that led us closer to the wedding.
but the significant thing is that we starting dating on the 18 and we are getting married on the 20 (both of december) so as we get closer and closer to the holidays we get closer and closer to those dates. nice.

last night- after i got off work- greg and i made stew. veggie stew and beef stew. it was great. it wasn't totally stew weather but the weather was perfect. and grey's anatomy was perfect. and the bakalava for desert was perfect too.

i have a midterm next week.
and halloween is the week after.
and then it's time for THANKSGIVING!

17.10.07

soup weather

i watching cooking shows- not religiously- but enough that i feel like to be a proper adult i am supposed to have many dinner parties with interesting foods, games, and cocktails. but unfortunately most of the food they tell you to cook centers around meat. which makes sense because we're a meat eating society, but this girl is not a meat eater.
sometimes i crave salmon or a steak or a burger or turkey with cranberry sauce or scallops. but i can't bring myself to eat meat. i can cook meat, maybe not well- i can't tell if it's cooked well because i won't taste it. but i don't mind cooking it.
i guess that's where greg comes in? he can be the meat cooker for all of the dinner parties we host like proper adults do.

there is a man on TV who has a campaign going that's about not complaining for 21 days. i was thinking about it and i think it would be really hard. sometimes i just complain to make conversation. i wonder if i could do it, i wonder if i should try?

we bought olive a dog house last night. an expensive dog house. but it's supposed to rain a lot today and we don't want her to be all soaked. we had the back shed open for her for awhile but she started getting into the trash in there and making huge messes. so we bought a dog house. we wanted to make one and maybe one day we will. but for now it was easiest to just buy one. i don't think she trusts it yet, it probably reminds her of the crate too much. her paws keep getting caked in mud and stuff- poor doggy. i think she's getting a bath tonight.

it's been soup weather. i love soup weather. just not rainy muddy soup weather. just cold soup weather.

16.10.07

more

i have a sonogram scheduled for next wednesday. to look at my gall bladder. not for babies.
everyone keeps thinking "maybe your pregnant." which is discouraging to my morality (rather our morality) because if you know me and greg then hopefully you know that we are waiting till marriage.
which might be too much information for some- but in today's world- where sex sex sex is everywhere- then i'm sure that my bluntness is not shocking at all.

so there.

my stomach hurts. not in the queezy way but in an actual aching way. it hurts to walk or move. i'm guessing it's sore because it used muscles it's not used to using, extensively. at least i hope that's the reason.

it's a lovely 81 degrees outside but it looks colder so therefore it feels colder. i am cold. i've been cold since early this morning. usually i love being cold but i know that i'm just tricking myself into thinking it's colder than it actually is. and maybe that's why i'm so cold right now?

i really do want to do better in school. i feel inspired. but also tired. so it's a weird mixture of wanting to do better and wanting to just sleep.

i have to leave soon for a film lab on Hinduism. If i remember correctly I liked learning about Hinduism my freshman year. But I also need to work on some geography homework so I might do that during the film lab.

is it a fashion faux pas to wear socks with ballet flats?
probably.
but i don't care.

time to go.

tuesday monday sunday

just a quick update.

sunday night i ate thai food with greg. about two hours later i started throwing up. and that was how i spent my sunday night. and when i wasn't throwing up i was tossing and turning trying to sleep.
so greg took me to the doctor in the morning but they were still closed. and my mom told me to take some medicene that helps with nausea but i threw that up.
so then finally when the doctor was open they hooked me up to an IV of saline solution and gave some dissolving-on-the-tongue anti-nausea medicene. i spent like 4 hours at the doctor and then the rest of the day sleeping at home.
and now, today, i am ok again.

escept i'm freaking out about my classes. i'm doing good in three of them and badly in two of them. or worse than i would like to be doing in two of them.

so that's all

14.10.07

A Very Wonderful Weekend

one hour and thirty or so minutes until church. we're going to a new church this morning. not b/c we don't like Hope Church but we've heard great things about TCBC.

yesterday my parents came into town. i love it when my parents come and visit me. or when i have long weekends to go and visit them. besides that fact that they are my parents and i love being with them, them visiting me means that i clean.
i am a clean and organized person but sometimes school and naps and other things get in the way of that and suddenly i find myself with dusty blinds and folders skewed across my floor and all of my bowls and spoons needing to be washed. but my parents coming over inspires me to take those two hours out of my schedule and clean. and i couldn't be more pleased with the result. even greg was thought my place looked nice. it did. it looked peaceful. and my mom bought me a pumpkin-scented candle which i have been burning to no prevail- so my house is not only peaceful but it is fall scented. it is cozy!

we ended up eating brunch together and taking my parents to go see Olive. we also went to the GAP at the mall and the saw the movie 3:10 to Yuma. That was a good movie. I'm glad we saw it. I wish I had a house for whenever my parents came and visited me, a house with a guest bedroom. So they could go and take a nap and then come out later and we could go do more things.

I'm not too sure when we're moving (my parents, not me and Greg). I'm excited and sad for when that day comes. It means no more Plano but it also means new house and new environment.

Last night, after my parents left, Greg and I went to Southlake. We ate at a really good Thai Place (I'm so lucky to have found someone who loves thai food as much as I do) and then we had almost even better ice cream. It was the perfect night. The weather was fantastic.

And now we are going to church to complete a very wonderful weekend.

12.10.07

gummi bears and dust

i am hungry and bored.
so as a result i am eating gummi bears. i forgot how good they are.


(i took that picture with my computer!)

so i feel like my allergies are especially bad when i am in my apartment. it is when my eyes are the watery-iest.
i didn't know why that was until a few minutes ago when i was lying on my bed doing a crossword puzzle. my bed is right by my windows which has lovely rays of sunlight streaming through the blinds.
well, i look up at my window- mid thought of a crossword clue- and i see on my blinds thick layers of dust.
so it is entirely probably that dust is causing my eyes to become fountains.

who cares that the dishes are done and the laundry is almost all caught up- no i have dust.
always something!

dogs, allergies, HAIR

I'm trying to make my hair curlier. but my hair isn't curly or straight. it's not even nicely wavy. parts are super curly, parts are wavy, others straight. so that gives me nothing to work with that could be considered pretty.
i would just straighten my hair all the time- somehow it's easier than making my hair curly- but it is bad for hair and my hair always looks ugly after three days of straightening. AND since i'm not getting my hair cut until december I need it to look good for another two months.

so i promised pictures of Brownwood, Texas but really- they aren't that good. They are blurry and do no justice to the day. Just know that the trip was great and hanging out with Jimmy and Sarah was tons of fun.

Allergies have been really bad lately. I've been naseaus and foggy and headachey and blurry visioned and sniffly. I hate them.
I also went to the doctor on Tuesday to try to figure out my stomach problem but it's still being determined. I go back this coming Tuesday. I got a new prescription to. I think it might be working?

the dog adoption day I helped plan was a big success. it was a lot of fun and there were a lot of dogs on campus.

my parents are coming in town this weekend. i'm excited. it's always nice to see them- i feel like it's been forever since i last saw them.

oh yesterday i downloaded the new radiohead cd, in rainbows. greg was practically salivating over it. it's neat b/c you get to pick your own prices for it- which is probably the only reason why i downloaded it. other than the fact that i am madly in love with greg and i want to buy him the world.
go download it.
www.inrainbows.com


pictures of the dog day
(the first ones are taken by my friend christina who has a grrreat camera)

olive looking incredibly beautiful


greg, olive, and myself on the steps of robert carr chapel. also, angie is in the background. she owns bailey- olive's new best friend.


my new favourite picture of the three of us


picture by a guy named michael

9.10.07

nice, colder day

today should be a good day.

1. it's colder outside.
2. greg has thingy, a good thingy.
3. i get to go to the japanese gardens
4. i recently discovered how GOOD cinnamon life (the cereal) is.

i did end up having a fall break this past week! greg and i went to brownwood, texas with his friend jimmy. both greg and jimmy went to howard payne university and hpu is in brownwood. so i decided it would be fun to see where greg spent 4 years of his life. and it was. i will post pictures later. unfortunately my camera is losing it's quality and some/most of the pictures are blurry. but it's ok.

i am really excited about october. greg and i bought two pumpkins from brownwood. one adorns my balcony and the other sits on his porch.

i've kinda been in a constant stage where i don't really care about school. i do my work, etc but i'm pretty much tired of classes and school. i'm ready to graduate. but unfortunately i have 439 days until that. i only know that b/c that's the day of the wedding.

4.10.07

OCTOBER!

breakfast:
1 triple tall americano with a splash of soy milk
1/2 of a maple doughnut
1 lowfat peach yogurt

i am trying to think about eating healthier but I think I failed with the maple doughnut.
well I really do eat healthy but lately my diet has consisted of burritos and ice cream. i'm not exaggerating in the slightest. my favourite food is chiptole vegetarian burritos (or the bols, those are good too). and greg and I have been eating ice cream almost every night. but mine is sorbet- so that counts for something right?


Today is the start of Fall Break. Unfortunately I have to work. I also have to work Saturday which means Greg and I can't go anywhere this weekened. Not even a day trip. I'm a little disappointed. I've never done anything for Fall Break-I've always gone home. But it would be nice to have the option. Next year we will go somewhere.
It's only 9:30ish and I've already done laundry and organized stuff and made my bed, etc. I'm going to go work on some homework in a few minutes. Thankfully one of my papers and one of my tests was pushed back a day next week.

A lot of Halloween stuff is out right now. I feel all nostalgic from last year. Around Halloween was when Greg and I started to really like each other. We might dress up as vampires this year!!! If we have some place to go on Halloween.


Oh! Here is a flyer for an event I'm helping to plan on campus. It's all about animal awareness and adoptions, etc. Christina, a very talented graphic designer made this flyer and a t-shirt in the same colour scheme, etc. Isn't it great?

2.10.07

the first of many

well i had my first midterm today. judaism. i could've studied more but i think i did ok.
i realized that i have to bring up my grades in french and geography. uggggh.

today i am working on a french portfolio for my french class. it's not due til the end of the year but she wants to see our progress.

greg and i started watching Heroes. we are almost done with season one. one more episode. which means we will be all caught up for the third episode of season 2. good enough.

Fall Break starts Thursday. I am jealous of everyone who gets to go somewhere. I have to work which means no vacation for me. Oh well.

Greg is doing a lot better. You can't really tell that he has had surgery. I'm happy his recovery went so well.

My friend Seth sent me a letter from DC yesterday. He's interning up there. He's a very good letter writer- I fall short in this area.

I finally did some laundry today but I am procrastinating on taking it out of the dryer. Once it is out of the dryer it means it has to be folded.

Olive chewed up the water hose at Greg's house. She is having fun dragging it around the backyard. We got her a new collar and some dog treats the other day. She is crazy. Greg thinks she is mentally challenged. I think she is wild.