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i have no idea if anyone reads this. i wish i could find a way to tell.
oh well. maybe it's better i don't know. it keeps things more neutral and i am not writing for a selective audience.

ok. i hate this. my whole mind is consumed with WEDDING.
but thankfully it comes and goes.
i mean, i can't go a full day without thinking about it.
but i can go like a couple hours...maybe?
i guess it just depends on the agenda.
when greg and i first started looking at places we were obsessed. horribly.
and then that whole first looking obsession died down and we were normal.
but now.
oh now...it's bad. i think of coral accents and what type of lilies i want and what type of vases i want with the lilies and do i really i want lilies? how can i keep everything simple and cheap but beautiful?
what songs do i want at the reception and will the lead singer of the band we like pull his hair back into a pony tail? and what will the cake taste like and what will i look like in my wedding dress and can i get more shape for my wedding dress? and how will i stay warm in the winter in my dress? what shoes? what will greg look like? how will we exit? will our guests have fun? do children count for the price per person on the meal? will i find stamps that match my invitations? can the interior of the envelope match the interior of the reception site?

i am thinking this while thinking "WWI affected the victorian era of britian which causes a dramatic decrease in britian's society and economic well-being, due to incredilby cold winters and imported grain, britian's cereal decreased by 50%."
etc etc etc etc etc etc etc

i have a test tomorrow, essay test. we can leave after it. but i have another class after it.
i hate my classes right now.

where will we go on our honey moon?
what if we make new friends this year?
what if someone on our list with the "guest option" breaks up with their guest do they still get to bring a guest...but another guest? what if that new guest is drunkard?

i want greg to have a studio.
like i think if we found a house with a detached garage we could make it into a studio.
we already know what our future cat's name will be: nico.

olive is smart.
she knows "go get your toy."
and today (this is embarrasing) i told olive to "go find daddy"
and she went to greg.
isn't that lame? i mean, smart of the dog, but "go find daddy??!?!" REALLY?

OH GET THIS. we tell her "get in the crate"
and she does it.

our five month puppy is a genius.

greg,
let's elope
love,
ericka